Complaining about it, or do something about it?

Sam and I had yet another long conversation. I did most of the talking. Does that surprise anyone? Who needs to pay a therapist when your baby sister is cleaning her apartment and say ah, huh every once in a while? LOL With that said, there are a ton of things that have been bugging me. I started blogging, so I could get this stuff out there.

Here it goes...
...I get annoyed that I have to work so hard at losing weight, and other people don't have a problem with it. I have never cared before, but lately I have been playing the victim. Sam figures that I have probably lost sight of what it is I am trying to accomplish. I thought I was playing the victim. It is an odd role for me, so I needed to come out and admit it.

...I am jealous of people who have hit their weightloss goals. It is weird that I would be jealous, but I have been for the last few months because things that use to work for me aren't. I need to be proud of what others have accomplished because they are amazing role models, and people I am totally proud of. I know I am being totally selfish, but I feel better about laying it out on the line. It makes me realize how dumb I sound right now, but the truth hurts sometimes.

...I am jealous of Jeremy and his ability to go out there and run. He does awesome, and I am so very proud of him. You have no idea. He is an amazing guy!! I am jealous that he is way faster than me. hehehe

...I hate how I have been obsessing about my weight and calories in and calories out. That is dumb! I need to do the things I love to do. When I chill out, I do so much better!!!

...I am not happy with my current WW meeting. They complain about everything, and they talk about how they can't do anything. I am starting to sound like them. I need to find a better meeting where I feel way more comfortable, so I can take the time to be a better mommy.

...I complain and complain lately. Why don't I stop complaining and do somthing about my feelings? Great question. Am I being lazy? Yup! My dad would be so embarrassed because he would tell me that I'm either be a part of the problem or part of the solution. It is time to be a part of the solution!!

Is this a test? Probably. It is a test to remember how much I enjoy eating healthy...how much I enjoy hanging out with my boys and not being tired...how much I love playing basketball in the rally without getting winded...how much I love to run...how much I love working out in general. I am wierd like that, I know. I love it.

With that, I am going to quit complaining. I am going to do what I love to do because I want to, not because I have too.

Happy Trails!! I will see you out on the streets or trails!