Today has been an emotional day. Not in a wierd I was crying all day and then happy kind of way, just wierd. I call it my emotional mind game. During lunch today I mentioned to Jeremy that I was going to use some of my birthday money to sign up for the San Diego Rock N Roll Marathon. He told me to go ahead. I was totally jazzed. Of course, then I start thinking about whether I wanted to do it for sure. Ah, the mind games have begun. When we are driving back to Jeremy's work he asked me where I was going to stay. I told him I had talked to his brother, and he said I could stay there. Jeremy was silent for a little while. He mentioned that he was going to go down there with me. I thought great, he can be my cheerleading squad again. Which got me more excited. After a few more minutes of silence, he told me that he was going to do the marathon with me. We weren't going to run together because he was faster than me, but he was going to do it too. Yipppeee! I was totally jazzed. I can chase Jeremy down.
My job was to go home call Jay and sign up for the race. No problem! I was on cloud nine. I talked to Jay, and we are all set to crash at his house on race weekend (May 31st). I then signed us up for the race. Yippee!
By this point, I was watching Ellen and I really didn't want to miss the rest of the show (why didn't I tivo it? I really need to quit using a show as a procrastination tool.). Anyway. By the time Ellen was over, Laurie and Kyle would be at my house. Ok, I won't run until they leave and after the boys have had dinner. When Laurie left, I noticed how foggy it was outside. Ack! I don't want to run in this. I made dinner, and put off running for another hour. I was about to can it completely when I realized I would have to blog about not going on a training run. I really didn't want to be harassed because I talked myself out of a training run. With that, I asked Jeremy if it was ok for me to go for a run (my last ditch effort at getting out of the run). After he gave me the ok, I went to change. Conner wanted to go, but I really was not feeling the whole push him in the stroller tonight. It was taking mommy every effort to get out the door, so I could not get both of us out the door.
I thought my Garmin was going to die, and I would have been said. My garmin tells me how far to go and when to stop. Tonight, I needed garmy. He was my helper. My motivator. He was going to prevent me from having to tell the world I didn't go for a run. I started out running, and my legs felt surprisingly good. This was going to be a nice run. Only one part, I thought it was creapy because of the lack of lights so I ran a different way. I wanted to feel like people could see me. It made me feel safer in the fog at 8 o'clock at night. By the time, I finished my run I felt great. I love, and missed, being out there. I felt alive and in control. All that mental stuff would have prevented me from doing what I loved. It is a shame that my mind was in control for a few minutes. My heart though took over and I am thankful.
Tomorrow is a 5 mile tempo run. The plan is to go before Jeremy goes to work. Hopefully, this will work out because I don't know when else I will be able to go. I have a pretty packed day. I also weigh in tomorrow. It won't be completely pretty, but I am in control! Did you hear that mind? I am in control!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Adventure Erin
Above, I have added some pictures of where I am starting. I figure if I am going to be public about this whole adventure, I might as well have some before shots. I know, crazy!! The next set of pictures will be posted when month one of my biggest loser challenge with my sisters have wrapped up. We are competing for an iTunes card. I have a good feeling! :o)
After watching six seasons of The Biggest Loser something finally sunk in. I did not get up early to cross train because I stayed up way to late reading a book. The book was worth it, and I am not finished yet. Instead, I decided to go later in the day. My intention was for the boys to go to school while I got a massage and rested, but Conner woke up this morning in meltdown mode. Ack! I did not do my cross training, and I was totally tired to boot. I was thinking I was starting off this plan on the wrong foot. I told Conner he needed to go to school while mommy went to an appointment. I would then pick him and Brodie up after my appointment was over. It would be close to 1 o'clock by the time this were to happen.
After napping, massage, and picking up the boys I got the hair-brained idea to walk the boys to Borders by my house. It was closing, and I thought this would be a great adventure. I get tired of driving everywhere, so this was what was going to happen. I would get my cross training and outdoor time with the boys at one time. We set off at around 2:30-3pm. Conner had his binoculars he received from Grandma Ginger and Grandpa Glen (thanks guys). He was in search of jack rabbits and any other treasures he could find. He looked like Elmer Fudd from the Buggs Bunny cartoons ("I'm chasin' wabbits.") minus the gun of course. Anyway, he was adorable and on the hunt. Brodie longed to be out of his section of the stroller, so I let him chase after Conner. They were off. Brodie does not run, he gallups. It is quite hysterical and I wish I had my camera. At one point, Brodie reached over and grabbed Conner's hand. They were holding hands while searching for wabbits. As time was starting to escape, I got them corralled back into the double-wide. I pushed them to Borders and made promises I thought I could keep.
No one told me Borders was going to be completely crazy. My gut told me to turn around and walk right back out; however, Jeremy sent me with a list of books and I promised Conner and Brodie a book. The line was a million miles long. It wrapped around the store. We waited in that stupid thing for about an hour and fifteen minutes. It was insane. The guy who cut in front of me kept giving Brodie and Conner other toys to potentially buy. The guy thought he was helping, but I kept seeing dollar signs. When we finished, I called Jeremy and walked over to Raleys. I had promised the boys a snack for the last hour and fifteen minutes. They deserved it. They were awesome!
Little did I know it was going to go downhill from there. Jeremy picked us at the lake because he thought we got lost and it was totally dark. It also was cold. It was not cold when we left, so we did not have jackets or sweatshirts. Ack! Jeremy asked if we wanted to go to Mel's. Of course! The boys had been restrained long enough. We should have gone home. Oh well! Lesson learned.
I did get my cross training in for an hour. Yippee! Day one done!! Tomorrow is a nice easy three mile run. The plan is to get up and do it before the boys get up and leave. Conner asked to go to school, so we shall see if this happens.
After napping, massage, and picking up the boys I got the hair-brained idea to walk the boys to Borders by my house. It was closing, and I thought this would be a great adventure. I get tired of driving everywhere, so this was what was going to happen. I would get my cross training and outdoor time with the boys at one time. We set off at around 2:30-3pm. Conner had his binoculars he received from Grandma Ginger and Grandpa Glen (thanks guys). He was in search of jack rabbits and any other treasures he could find. He looked like Elmer Fudd from the Buggs Bunny cartoons ("I'm chasin' wabbits.") minus the gun of course. Anyway, he was adorable and on the hunt. Brodie longed to be out of his section of the stroller, so I let him chase after Conner. They were off. Brodie does not run, he gallups. It is quite hysterical and I wish I had my camera. At one point, Brodie reached over and grabbed Conner's hand. They were holding hands while searching for wabbits. As time was starting to escape, I got them corralled back into the double-wide. I pushed them to Borders and made promises I thought I could keep.
No one told me Borders was going to be completely crazy. My gut told me to turn around and walk right back out; however, Jeremy sent me with a list of books and I promised Conner and Brodie a book. The line was a million miles long. It wrapped around the store. We waited in that stupid thing for about an hour and fifteen minutes. It was insane. The guy who cut in front of me kept giving Brodie and Conner other toys to potentially buy. The guy thought he was helping, but I kept seeing dollar signs. When we finished, I called Jeremy and walked over to Raleys. I had promised the boys a snack for the last hour and fifteen minutes. They deserved it. They were awesome!
Little did I know it was going to go downhill from there. Jeremy picked us at the lake because he thought we got lost and it was totally dark. It also was cold. It was not cold when we left, so we did not have jackets or sweatshirts. Ack! Jeremy asked if we wanted to go to Mel's. Of course! The boys had been restrained long enough. We should have gone home. Oh well! Lesson learned.
I did get my cross training in for an hour. Yippee! Day one done!! Tomorrow is a nice easy three mile run. The plan is to get up and do it before the boys get up and leave. Conner asked to go to school, so we shall see if this happens.
P.S. I have also slowed down the Diet Soda consumption. For those of you who know me that is quite amazing. I bought a Diet Pepsi from Taco Bell, and I dumped about 3/4 out. I didn't want it. I ordered a Diet Pepsi at Mel's and I drank maybe half of it. Jeremy was in shock. Can I keep it up? I think so!!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Am I Crazy?
I am pretty sure I am. I blame my cousin for talking to me on Christmas Eve. She asked if I wanted to run the San Diego Rock N' Roll Marathon with her. Normally I would say yes and know she isn't going to run it; however, this year for whatever reason I really hope she follows through. I know, I know. I said I was not doing any more marathons after I ran CIM. What did I learn from that adventure?
1. I do better right now with my crazy life if I am training for a race. Once the race was over, I really didn't get out the door.
2. I eat better while I am training. Who would have thunk it?
3. I definitely do better training first thing in the morning. I let too many things come up in the afternoon evening. Ask Sam! She chewed me out so many times it wasn't funny.
I think I am going to train for this marathon a little differently.
I got some money for Christmas, and I know I am getting some money for my birthday (I get to pick out my own gifts.). I am going to sign up for a race in February and the first of May. I love racing. It was what killed me about the fall race. When I came home from Disney World's Expedition Everest, I was ready to run. Unfortunately, I didn't have a race soon enough. If I plan it right, I will be racing in February, March, early May, and late May. Jay and Stef said I could stay at their house. Which means they know I am thinking about doing this again! Someone told me that running a marathon is liking having a kid. You forget the pain shortly after running the marathon. Um, I don't think so. Boy was I wrong. I love training. I love being motivated to do something.
I also think I am going to be very open about my training. Here! My baby sister who usually pushes my lazy butt out of bed will be leaving again for Africa. I would hate for her to miss any opportunity to make fun of me. I am also hoping by blogging about my journey on this marathon path, I will get encouragement from my other friends who read my blog. I guess this means I need to be a little bit more like Kathy (thanks AK) and blog every day. We shall see!
The adventure awaits! Are you along for the ride with me? Tomorrow is one hour of cross training!! The plan to get up early, and get it done. Then I have no excuse. :o)
1. I do better right now with my crazy life if I am training for a race. Once the race was over, I really didn't get out the door.
2. I eat better while I am training. Who would have thunk it?
3. I definitely do better training first thing in the morning. I let too many things come up in the afternoon evening. Ask Sam! She chewed me out so many times it wasn't funny.
I think I am going to train for this marathon a little differently.
I got some money for Christmas, and I know I am getting some money for my birthday (I get to pick out my own gifts.). I am going to sign up for a race in February and the first of May. I love racing. It was what killed me about the fall race. When I came home from Disney World's Expedition Everest, I was ready to run. Unfortunately, I didn't have a race soon enough. If I plan it right, I will be racing in February, March, early May, and late May. Jay and Stef said I could stay at their house. Which means they know I am thinking about doing this again! Someone told me that running a marathon is liking having a kid. You forget the pain shortly after running the marathon. Um, I don't think so. Boy was I wrong. I love training. I love being motivated to do something.
I also think I am going to be very open about my training. Here! My baby sister who usually pushes my lazy butt out of bed will be leaving again for Africa. I would hate for her to miss any opportunity to make fun of me. I am also hoping by blogging about my journey on this marathon path, I will get encouragement from my other friends who read my blog. I guess this means I need to be a little bit more like Kathy (thanks AK) and blog every day. We shall see!
The adventure awaits! Are you along for the ride with me? Tomorrow is one hour of cross training!! The plan to get up early, and get it done. Then I have no excuse. :o)
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